Picking up the pieces

Hi all,

Well, many of you know, but for those who don't, I miscarried at 9 weeks.  I had a D&C last Friday, so our bean wasn't meant to be.  But, I know I'm 40, so it is very common for this to happen.  Doesn't make it easier, but makes it more understandable.  Good news is that Sean is a very precious distraction, and I love every minute I spend with him.  Plus, we are closing escrow on a house in Torrance soon, so we can't wait for that.  It was delayed by a day, but we expected much worse since we're getting a FHA loan.  We can't wait to get the keys on Thursday.  Did the walk through today, and no real glaring issues, just a few outstanding questions. 

We'll have an office when we move, so I'm hoping it will be easier to sit down to post, but we'll see.  In the meantime, thanks for reading.

Love to you all,
xoxo Yo!

u/s pics and scared

Hi all,

Okay, so it's been a big week, and I haven't been sleeping well, so I'm feeling prettyemotional right now.  Plus, I was really hoping to have seen a wonderful heart beat tonight....

Well, here are the u/s pics of our little bean:

The first is a picure of the fetal pole - hard to see if you don't know what you're looking at, but it's the blog in the middle of the amniotic sac.

The second picture is of the yolk sac which feeds the baby until the umbilical blood vessels take over.  It is the "bubble" looking thing in the amniotic sac.

Yes, I am scared.  Of course, my O date could be several days off, but not likely off by a week.  Hummm, now I'm just working myself up.  I just have to be patient, and know that I am blessed with wonderful family and we're about to move into a dream home for us.  I know if I get some sleep, it will help me get some perspective.

Thanks for listening...any prayers you have would be appreciated.  Or, encouragement...I'm a little down right now.

xoxo Yo

7w1d - Limbo Land

Hi all,

Well had the first u/s, and the bean was too small yet for a heart beat. I go back in 2 weeks for another u/s. There was a yolk sac and a fetal pole, so it's not bad news, but just not as far along as we had hoped. I also had a large cyst in my left ovary, do that was interesting. So, limbo land until 2 weeks from now. Still praying this little bean grows strong!

xoxo Yo!