5 Days of BFPs & High Temps

Hi all!

So far, I'm taking each day one at a time. Because I've had a chemical pregnancy previously, my excitetment now turns to one of wondering what will happen next.

The chemical pregnancy occured April 2007. I tested at day 27-ish (I wasn't charting at this point). I had been feeling the "cramping" as I've felt with all 3 pregnancies so far, so I had a feeling it would be BFP. Then DH and I want on vacation. Interestingly, I got the BFP on a digital test, but the words went away within 3 hours or so, which was a little weird. That was on Sunday. By Wednesday of our trip, and I don't recollect why, but I asked DH if we could stop to get more PG tests. We were in Navajo country so there were very few stores around. I took it, and BFN. We, at the time, thought that it was perhaps a faulty test because it may have been exposed to temperatures that damaged it. On the next Sunday of our trip, I started my period. I have no idea when I O'd for this April 2007 cycle, so I have no idea how far along I really was.

Fast forward to now. I find myself worried that I'm going to start AF any second, and that this BFP will be fleeting. I try to stay optomistic, but until I know my beta numbers, I feel like this is just a condition and not a pregnancy. Probably NOT the right attitude. I know it's not in my hands, but in God's hands, and I'm just along for the ride. All I can do is to take care of myself and know that it will all work out as it should, no matter what the outcome. One day at a time. Like a recovering alcoholic, that's how I'm currently living. Hopeful for the future, but guarded because of the past.

DH is so wonderful, he looks at me with such caring eyes that show he knows this is a miracle. I am lucky to have such an amazing husband whom I love dearly and loves me dearly. In the end, that is what matters most. I am truly blessed in life.

The good thing is that all my POAS tests are getting darker by the day and my temps are staying up. That means I'm pregnant, so that's a lot to be thankful for! And, I do keep imagining myself holding a beautiful baby. In my vision, I can even smell how wonderful the baby smells. Perfect bundle of joy in my arms.

One note about due dates...most MDs will start counting from the first day of your LMP. You then take that date (3/18/08) and subtract 3 months and add 7 days. This gives me a due of December 25! (I'm hoping that this means my little bean is truly a miracle!) If I calculate from my O date (3/28/08), FF calculates my due date as 12/19/08. So, I will definitely consider myself lucky if both my birthday (12/14) AND Christmas presents can be a healthy baby in my arms. That would be the most amazing present ever.

Thanks so much to everyone for their thoughts and prayers and advice. It means so much to me and I am grateful.

xoxo Yo!