Still Nervous...in a holding pattern

Well, first of all, I was a little nervous today because I didn't have to get up last night because of gassiness or to urinate, and today I didn't really feel that pregnant - not like I have been the other days. I do have very store bbs and am still constipated (sorry if TMI). I'm hoping I wasn't nauseous because I've been very good at eating frequently. I did temp and test this am, and HUGE BFP, so I guess that means I'm still pg. I really don't think I'll ever feel like I'm out of the woods on this. Maybe I'll feel better if I have a good u/s. Here's my BFP progression...

12 DPO18 DPO

23 DPO - today - 4/20/08

Speaking of u/s, that's the other thing. My dr office messed up on my appt and my dr isn't available for an initial pregnancy visit until June. So, I have to see another dr and that will happen on 5/7. Interestingly enough, if I make it that far, I'll be 7w5d. Love how numbers do that sometimes. So, I pray all the time for God to look after this little life growing inside me. I know he has a plan for me and I just hope that his plans include me giving birth in December.

Sorry if I bug anyone with my "I'm so scared" posts, but it is really hard after having multiple m/c. I probably analyze things WAY too much. But, it's all I have right now, so that's what I'm going on for now. Thanks to everyone for their prayers for my little bean!

I will say, DH is amazing every day and in every way. He is so good to me and makes me smile all the time. I feel blessed to have him in my life and know that no matter what happens, we can get through this uncertainty together.

Love to everyone.

xoxo Yo!